I'm On The Right Track

❝ I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.
I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too."

— Pablo Neruda

Them Bullets

Today is Thursday - in an Intramurals week, that is. And for that, we do not have classes (insert ecstatic gif right here).

For the four days of sleeping-late-waking-up-late routine, I have came to the conclusion of a few little things. And by a few I mean I need to write about them in bullets:

• I did not expect I would actually come to think of this but...I find that the internet is getting boring. I mean, it's not like four years ago when I could live for days locked up in my room with just fast internet connection and chocolate turtle cake. Now, I could barely last 8 hours straight. And that's already saying something.
• I realized that reading about 4 chapters of Gastrointestinal System (status: 3 out of 4) + 1 Module of Colostomy Care (still pending, by the way) is way too much for me to handle. I used to love G.I. back in elementary. It was my favorite system, as a matter of fact. I wonder what ever happened to that now.  Like I just became fed up about it (no pun intended). It's making me a little bit hypochondriac, too. The long exam is gonna be next week, and still I feel like the topics are not sinking in to me. It's like I keep on missing something...my enthusiasm? Oh, I hope not. One thing's fo sure though, it's not like in elementary anymore. 
• My phone is the most depressing thing ever. I keep myself from checking on it because if I did it would only make me feel even more alone. Like "yeah, thanks a lot, phone, for rubbing it in my face how big of a party my sms-life is." 
• Combi Crackers (the blue ones) are to die for! They just cure every bit of chocolate craving in me without getting too guilty for the price. I'm munching one right now.
• I'm looking forward to borrowing Paper Towns, from my friend who also lent me Looking For Alaska. John Green is such an amazing author. My friend is such an amazing friend.
• Yesterday night I watched A Walk To Remember for the first time ever (no kidding!) alone. Do you ever feel that lump in your throat when you try with all your might to hold back your tears? This was what I was doing when I watched the movie. I had to do that cause it was already late and everyone was sleeping and imagine if one of my family wakes up to see me crying my heart out (coryza dripping and all) with just the light coming from the laptop screen illuminating my face. Oh, I cannot find any fitting adjective on how to describe this movie. Saying it was heart-warming would not suffice. And I presume most of you have already seen the movie, so you probably know what I mean.
• And I'm undoubtedly worried about next week. That's the thing about the week after a no-class week...it's gonna be a little agonizing convincing yourself that it's back to reality again. (OR/DR PRC forms to be submitted, long exams and quizzes, biostat shizznits, one-point something depressions, et cetera.)

On the bright side, I still have the remaining days of me being a free citizen to do some catching up. So...yeah. 

Hiling by Silent Sanctuary

Minsan di ko maiwasang isipin ka

Lalo na sa t'wing nag iisa 

Ano na kayang balita sayo 

Naiisip mo rin kaya ako? 

Simula nang ikaw ay mawala 

Wala nang dahilan para lumuha 

Damdamin pilit ko nang tinatago

Hinahanap ka parin ng aking puso

Parang kulang nga kapag ika'y wala 

At hihiling sa mga bituin

Na minsan pa sana ako'y iyong mahalin 

Hihiling kahit dumilim

Ang aking daan na tatahakin... 

Patungo... 

Ala-ala mong tinangay na ng hangin

Sa langit ko na lamang ba yayakapin 

Nasan ka na kaya, aasa ba sa wala? 

At hihiling sa mga bituin... 

Na minsan pa sana ako'y iyong mahalin... 

Hihiling kahit dumilim... 

Ang aking daan na tatahakin... 

Patungo sa iyo, patungo sa iyo... 

Ipipikit ko ang aking mata dahil... 

Nais ka lamang mahagkan... 

Nais ka lamang masilalayan... 

Kahit alam kong tapos na

Kahit alam kong wala ka na... 

At Hihiling sa mga bituin

Na minsan pa sana ako'y iyong mahalin

Hihiling kahit dumilim

Ang aking daan na tatahakin

Patungo sa iyo, patungo sa iyo.