All of Our Tomorrows

At this time, I am now in my 32nd week of pregnancy with Nicolo. By God's grace, I carried him from the Philippines, to Florida, then to Vermont. And though the Lord has been so faithful to us, the carnal man in me still makes me afraid of the thought of what might tomorrow bring. My husband could attest to that, too, as sometimes when at night before we sleep when we have those sleepy conversations of how our day is etc, we share the shudder of all that is parenthood.

Last May we celebrated Mothers' Day, and yesterday was Fathers' Day. Those days did not mean much to us as it did this year. For it only rubbed the fact that in a few weeks' time, we are going to be Mom and Dad to baby Nicolo.

I laughed at my husband's reaction the other day when I was unpacking the items we bought from Walmart for baby's arrival. He acted terrified and we both laughed while I removed all the tags and have the baby stuff be ready to be laundered. It was a momentous feeling for him too as yesterday, being Fathers' Day, was the day he set up Nicolo's bassinet. He said he shed a tear after doing that, saying it all seems so surreal. Baby clothes, burp cloths, diapers and wipes, teeny tiny mittens, caps and socks, oh, being able to purchase and actually have these baby stuff in our hands, I cannot accurately describe the feeling.

The question that comes to our mind every now and then is, are we even ready to be parents? We have only been husband and wife for 9 months, and in two months' time, we'll be assuming new roles as parents. But surely the Lord's ways are not our ways, his times are best. 

That is why, the title for this entry is borrowed from Sovereign Grace Music's new song, All Of Our Tomorrows. 

"When winter makes us reminisce
Of warmer days so distant now
Of cherished saints the sun once kissed
Whose beauty passed behind the clouds
Let all our fond and longing tears
Remind us we are pilgrims here
We trust You, Sovereign of our years
With all of our tomorrows."

We do not know what tomorrow brings, but we can trust God for all of our Tomorrows.